It CAN happen.

I feel GOOD! I feel energized.

Life has been a roller-coaster through HELL this year.

But small miracles bringing things back around.

Even though I am no longer engaged to Matthew, I am still close to his mother. And she is always encouraging my battle through weight loss. Never coming down on me through my lazy periods, my giving up and not being able to see it through.

Last night we started working out together. And we will again tonight. And I think that as long as I have FULL support I can get through this. I've always since this huge weight gain, seen it as impossible to go forward. That I would be fat forever.

But I don't see that outlook anymore.

People tease me about my love of Adam Lambert, but it is with his music and Linda's support and my mother always standing behind me, that I see this mission for a healthier life style come BACK to the forefront.

Not to be deterred.