A little pause in the road. But that's okay.

With my ridiculous work schedule this week, I was unable to work out for three days. REALLY bummed out.

But today is THURSDAY and I get to work out tonight.

I feel good you guys.

Like better than I have in a while. I don't feel the stress that I have for the last two years.

Not trying to jinx myself at all. LOL. And... I am better at just surrounding myself with positive people. And sadly that is not always my family. I get on GREAT with my daddy and step mom. My brother David and I are really close. And even though I don't talk to my sister Danna a lot, RL is crazy, LOL... I am still very close to her.

I need positive people.

Matthew's mother Linda is always supportive. And there.

She is working out with me, motiving me by going with me. She doesn't have to ask me every night, but she does, and it is that push that keeps me going.

I have a goal in life. HEALTHY living, long lasting.

NEW WARDROBE! LOL!

It CAN happen.

I feel GOOD! I feel energized.

Life has been a roller-coaster through HELL this year.

But small miracles bringing things back around.

Even though I am no longer engaged to Matthew, I am still close to his mother. And she is always encouraging my battle through weight loss. Never coming down on me through my lazy periods, my giving up and not being able to see it through.

Last night we started working out together. And we will again tonight. And I think that as long as I have FULL support I can get through this. I've always since this huge weight gain, seen it as impossible to go forward. That I would be fat forever.

But I don't see that outlook anymore.

People tease me about my love of Adam Lambert, but it is with his music and Linda's support and my mother always standing behind me, that I see this mission for a healthier life style come BACK to the forefront.

Not to be deterred.